Thankful 2/16/15

There is nothing like a freezing cold and rainy day to make you appreciate the things that make life sweet. So, in the throws of this HORRID weather I have just got to give a little thanks. This weather brings to the table the first order of business…

1. NO CLASSES. Dr. Conn, Mondays are hard. Especially, this one. You are the man for giving us the day off. A day cuddled up in my blankets with coffee and netflix was blissful. I could almost laugh with giddiness. Ahhhh. Yes.

2. Cadbury chocolate eggs. I mean. These little morsels of chocolate and cream are pretty much the perfect rainy day treat, as well as my total undoing. I. CAN’T. STOP. What’s a better way to anticipate the start of the Lenten season (Wednesday) than with those decadent little eggs? Am I right?

3. My sweet, precious roommate. I am convinced that it must take an INCREDIBLY special person to live with me and still love me as much as she does. She puts up with my inability to sleep in past 8am, the growing pile of clothes on the floor, and the pound of hair I shed on our bathroom floor every day. She always has time to hear about my day or to hear a woefully unfunny joke. Rachel, your love for the Lord inspires me daily and I love who you are.

4. The new BTC album. If you are remotely close to me, or if you have two ears and show signs of life, you have probably heard that I AM COMPLETELY OBSESSED. But, really. It is amazing, AND it is on spotify! I dare you to listen to “Jesus Is” only one time. You can’t. It is THAT good.

5. Nail polish. This sounds dumb (even as I type it), but hey, why not? There is something about looking down at a set of pretty, pink nails that just makes you feel like you can do anything.

6. Valentine’s Day. Although I did not have a “special someone” to celebrate with this year, I have to say that I love this holiday. I love that people take a day to celebrate the people that they love. Even though there is no one that I am in love with, I just really appreciated the day to be extra aware of how much my friends and family mean to me.

7. Free sweet tea at Farmhouse. I don’t have to explain this, right?

8. My car. Good ole Lexi. At 279,000 miles, every time she starts I am thankful.

9. Ephesians chapter three. I have found this chapter a perfect prayer for those I love. When I can’t find the words to pray, I find that Paul’s prayer for the Ephesians often perfectly articulates the urging in my heart.

https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=ephesians%203&version=VOICE;NIV

10. Worship. I made a comment to my roommate tonight that went something like this- “I just want to quit school, quit my responsibilities, and just be in a worship service for the rest of my life.” She responded, “Um, I think you just described Heaven?” Good point, Rachel. It is so true, though. I feel like there is just never enough time in the day to just concentrate on God and tell him how much I love him. I could go on forever about this, but I won’t. Below is a link to something I wrote a while back about worship, for the two of you who might be interested (I am talking to you, mom and dad)

https://ahewin00.wordpress.com/2014/12/22/get-lost/

So that is really all I have. Riveting, I know. Hey, you, I encourage you to take a moment to thank God for the little things that make life sweet. They really are all around you!

Never Lose the Wonder

I have had a smile on my face all day. It has just been SUCH a great day for a million reasons and really none at all. I’m just really thankful. And here is why…

1. THIS WEATHER. All my Cleveland peeps know what I’m talking about. It’s like you walked out the door today into a gigantic hug. I wore a SWEATER today. No jacket. Just the sweater. I think there might have been actual milk and honey flowing from the flame fountain this morning. Let’s “give him a hand clap of praise” (LOL)

2. Friends…. as in Ross, Rachel, Monica, Chandler, Joey, and Pheobe. It’s like I can’t stop hitting the “play next” button, but I love every single moment.

3. Daisy by Marc Jacobs perfume. My all time favorite smell.

4. Subway cookies. They really never fail to satisfy.

5.  Ooo when you are walking outside and the wind blows through your hair and you feel like a movie star for a few seconds.

6. The way that coffee looks when you pour cream into it. for only a moment, they are two indentifiable substances, and then all of a sudden one is indistinguishable from the other. I mean, it might be weird, but I think that it’s beautiful.

7. My parents. The older I get, the more I appreciate them. Mom and Dad, I love you a lot.

8. I’m thankful for good conversation with great people. I am thankful for the conversation that challenges me. I’m thankful for the conversation that makes me laugh from my belly and the kind that just seems insignificant, but actually makes me feel at home. Most of all I am thankful for those who share it with me. Thank you for letting me be Abigail.

9. Community Bible Church. Every time I come home, it is like I never left. I am so thankful that I can call such a caring and loving community of believers home. With every hug, every encouraging text message, every cup of coffee shared on a Sunday morning, these people are helping me become the woman that I am made to be. CBC- I love you.

10. The wonder of God’s great mercy. I love that I will never fully understand it. I love that it is so outlandish that I will just keep standing in wonder of this mercy. Matt Redman’s song “Mercy” hits it so beautifully.

May I never lose the wonder, oh the wonder of Your mercy. May I sing your hallelujah, hallelujah amen. 

May we never lose the wonder of God’s mercy. May we never forget to thank Him for the joy of the little things. Be encouraged, today! There are blessings all around you.

February 2nd, 2015

Without eloquent words or profound language, I am about to give it to you straight about the beauty of really trusting God.

Trust is like standing on the edge of a cliff. On one side of the cliff is your home with all of your closest friends and family. There is a really pretty pond stocked with fish that you and your little brother fish from. There’s also your bedroom with your baby blanket and all of your favorite summer camp tee shirts, and pictures of all the friends you made at every summer camp you ever went to. You start looking a little closer and you realize that you all of a sudden own the the entire series of your favorite TV shows on dvd and your mom has set up the living room with a blanket and homemade apple cider for you to binge watch the whole thing. Oh wait… is that the guy/girl you are in love with. Yep. It is. Gosh, that smile. On this side of the cliff is plenty of money and security. You are engaged to an incredibly handsome doctor… which reminds you of the stunning 2 carat diamond ring on your finger. As you are gazing lovingly down at the rock that your handsome doctor gave you, God gives you a little tap on the shoulder and tells you to take a little look on the other side.

So, you look. The other side of the cliff is…. well. It’s uhh….. You can’t see anything. Complete darkness down there. There is one thing that God told you is down there in all that blurry darkness. He told you that in that blurriness lives His promise. He promises that it is worth the jump. It is worth taking off your diamond ring and stepping too far for comfort. Of course you are afraid and entirely unsure, so you tell Him that. And He responds , “Child, lean not on your own understanding. In all of your ways acknowledge me and I will make straight your path. (Proverbs 3:5-6)”

The more you consider it, the more you realize that as much as you love all that you know, you will do anything it takes to know the One by whom you are so completely known. As much as you love your childhood bedroom, there comes a moment when you have to believe that what is at the bottom of that chasm was promised before you were even making memories in that bedroom. Trust is loving God more than anything else, taking deep breath, and jumping down into the dark unknown.

To the one who is reading this:

I haven’t a clue what is at the bottom of your chasm or mine. But, I do know that He who promised is faithful, and that at the bottom of your chasm is a fully abundant life. Take it from someone who is taking new jumps every single day. A life full of jumping off cliffs for Christ will always win over safety and security. Take the leap, for He who promised is faithful.